keeping success in mind

[castastone]

 i am seriously struggling to stay on top of all the work i have to do. trying to keep in mind how badly i want success, opportunities, money, a family. i need to do this. i need to work hard. i never have before, ever. i cant keep floating through life. its not hard. 3 years of work for a lifetime of happiness. i can make that trade. i can do it. 5 papers and thats it. 5 measly papers.