contra

i did contradance last night. i had been nervous to go because i am extremely uncoordinated and have always been terrible at dancing. i was also nervous to dance with random guys, especially old men. but i can honestly say i had an amazing time. i cant wait for next week. i danced with my friends and with a hot boy from my residence hall. it felt nice to have his hands on me. i felt like a princess when he spun me. i hate how much self worth i place on mens opinions of me, but it just feels so good to feel wanted.

im trying to feel better internally. i dont like being conniving and shit talking. i want to be a positive force. i want to radiate kindness!

always performing

fuck me im already starting to view this blog through the eyes of someone else STOP IT STOP IT GET OIUT MY HEAD